my closest people always blame me for what happen and never appreciate me. They always judge me and scold me as if I was the cause of all problems existing. I hate them!!!
Now it seems real. Maybe my aunt lost feeling and not respect again to me. because I had said something I should not tell to my parents. i said that 'something' because i feel uncomfortable anymore
something it's very important for my aunts and my aunt no want nobody knows about that, especially my big family. but i did it. because i feel uncomfortable anymore. i feel guilty to myself if i hide something wrong in front of me. i just wanna say something right without hurting somebody else , i do that because i love my aunt, i don't want something happen to my aunt.
but now her attitude to me a little bit difference from usually. she's a little bit arrogant to me and don't care to me. do you feel comfort if you live in your aunt's home, but attitude your aunt like that to you ? i think you will be feel like what i feel now. very uncomfortable you feel that you wanna go out from that house and looking for other home and just live alone, that's maybe better than you live with someone who don't want you at there.
huuu how with my fate next? after my parent back to Bandung? i feel nothing here. Oh God help me?? what i should do? I confused very confused...
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